Tired
I’m tired.
Tired of the following things.
- Christian cliché.
- Whipping up a “spiritual” but totally emotional frenzy
- People who “hear from God” while only trying to justify their own thought process.
- “Off the cuff spiritual transformations” while relying totally on your own ability to “unprave” our depraved life just to make you feel normal.
One thing life has taught me is that I am an open book in the hands of a terrifying God. While this rattles me to the bone and kicks me out of my comfort zone like there is no tomorrow, I take comfort in that Jesus knows exactly where I am am – right here, right now.
- He knows my strengths. He knows where I suck. He knows the way my enemy wrecks me. He knows how to progress me forward and He knows what gets me down.
- He knows everything. Even a casual reading of the Gospels reveals an all knowing, all perceiving God who knows everything about anything of a person life.
- And because of this, I’m tired. Tired of my short comings. Tired of my failures. Tired of the consequences of my failures. Tired of the effect that sin has thrust upon me and those around me. And tired at my attempts, and the attempts of others to justify themselves in front of a Holy God.
- Who the hell do we think we are?
- And it’s for these reasons that I crave to rest in the words of Jesus when He uttered..
Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” Mat 11:28
Jesus. I am burdened. Burdened by my own sin and burdened by those around me trying to justify themselves without coming to You first. I need Your rest. A rest I don’t think my soul has ever experienced. I need to know Your gentleness and just how low You would stoop for a person like me. I need to know this not just in my head – but in my heart and in my soul. I need to know this because my soul needs to rest. It’s totally beat Jesus. I’m not going to pretend because You would instantly know. Your words “easy” and “light” are drawing me right now. Help me find You the way you intend it to be.
Yes, yes, yes.
Hi Carol – thanks for stopping by and commenting. Glad you can relate to what I wrote about. This is a growing burden in my life these days as I am deeply concerned at the authenticity of the Church to a sceptical world. I'll never make excuses to this sceptical world about Jesus. I just want to be honest because every human, deep down, craves truth. And that can only be met in Jesus – without all the baggage people like to stack on top.