LayGuy

Yeah.  This is where I am at the moment.  Wandering.  Wondering.  Like a stack of Jenga and some invisible hand is taking away the pieces – exposing my weaknesses.

Vulnerable.  A word I can so relate to. It’s amazing to to your self worth and self reliance snatched away from you as quick as the morning dew melts in the rays of sunrise.

Uncharted territory at the moment. New, scary, raw and somewhat excited at the potential outcome.  Happened to me before – when I first met Jesus.

When I think about things, I reckon it needs to happen all over again.  Break me Jesus.  I need to move on from where I am at the moment.  This crossroad has been in my face for far too long.

That heavy burden you spoke about, I know You were referring to religion at the time.  But my burden is modern life.  Modernity is a curse to me and I need you to help me shoulder this.  Even better, I need you pick it up from my shoulders and show me just how destructive it is.

And then I need to see it – atoned for, and paid in full.  Not because I deserve it.  But to be able to see that You can still reach out and save a person like me.  This is where I am..

“You have put me in the depths of the pit, in the regions dark and deep.  Your wrath lies heavy upon me, and you overwhelm me with all your waves.” Psalm 88:6-7

Teach me what I need to know Jesus.  My prayer is that I know how to make you Lord of my life – instead of just my Saviour.  Because if you’re only my Saviour, I’ve idolised you – instead of worshipped you.